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Jan. 28th, 2009

Log Title: Holding Pieces of Dieing Ember
Location: Corridors
Characters Involved: Blake Parker (youllbeokay) and anyone else who wants to join.
Summary of Log: Blake can't sleep... again.
Rating: PG

A bunch of things were all adding up together to make Blake Parker frustrated. He was in a phase where school work seemed unimportant. He had no idea where that attitude had come from though. This was his last year in Hogwarts, this was the year that mattered, and yet he couldn't force himself to concentrate on his homework (or any other thing to do with school) for more than half an hour at a time. It was annoying to say the least, especially when he didn't even have a decent enough reason for being so distracted. Or any reason in the first place. He almost wanted to start skipping classes again. He had done a couple of times already, though it wasn't exactly the same as before - This time he was getting told off for it. By either Tad or some teacher. More so Tad. Tad wasn't happy with the spontaneous class skippings at all.

He was moody for no reason. Blake kept snapping at people, be it a teacher, some randomer, or even one of his best friends. Most recently Jack. He had blamed Jack because he had got drunk a couple of nights before. Yeah, blaming Jack was the best idea... Far from it actually. Blake still had no idea why he'd been so stupid to say that. It wasn't exactly Jack's fault that Blake couldn't resist guzzling down alcohol. He didn't half do some idiotic things, sometimes.

And he was craving attention. Not in the cuddles sort of way, he wanted so much more. Half a year and counting. Half a year without sex. Nearly a year since meaningful sex. The more that Blake thought about it, the more he craved it. He couldn't bring it up with Mags though. Definitely not now. It was possible that they could have already passed that stage, had she not been pregnant. It was driving him insane. Every 'what if' scenario was taunting him. If Jack hadn't stepped in, if the Death Eaters hadn't kidnapped him... He wanted to go so much further with Mags, yet it was almost as if he wasn't allowed to. Even a joke about it would upset Mags or anger her...

He always seemed to think up these what if situations whenever he was trying to sleep. And the answers always plagued him, and kept him awake. It was no different tonight. Blake Parker just could not sleep, so he had just been wandering corridors for a while, all well knowing the risk that he'd get a detention for being out after hours. But he didn't care. Someone to talk to at least would have been nice, however it was questionable whether anybody was actually going to be awake or not. Most people tended to be in bed by now.

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youllbeokay
Feb. 2nd, 2009 08:45 pm (UTC)
“Plenty.” Blake responded simply. This wasn’t helping, at all. Despite Lanisa’s good intentions, talking about Jack and Mags in the same conversation rarely felt like good fun any more. Okay, so they were both two of his best friends, but the sad thing was that he found it hard to distract himself from the other things. He was the first one that she had slept with. He was the father of her frigging child… “Yeah, I tend to be on the receiving end of Mags’ anger when she loses against Jack.” Blake finally spoke up again, though he seemed to be amused nonetheless, seeing as a smile was on his face.

“Yeah, but she-” But she slept with Jack when I was kidnapped by Death Eaters was what he wanted to say. Another thing that he wasn’t supposed to be revealing. Well… Mags hadn’t exactly said that he wasn’t allowed to go around blabbing that she had had sex with her Quidditch rival. It was more out of decency, if he was honest. It wouldn’t score him good points with his girlfriend, and hell, who exactly needed to know that, anyway?

The next point that Lanisa had to say caught him completely off guard. Blake instantly turned wide-eyed when Lanisa mentioned her decision with Tad to take their relationship to the next level. “Jesus Christ you two kept that one quiet!” The points she had to back-up why they had only just come to that decision however seemed to have little effect on him. He was close to Mags and they loved each other… Honestly, the only thing that was really getting in the way was that baby! “But seriously Chick, nice!” Blake laughed a little then as he pulled her into a hug. Apparently a congratulations-on-sexing-Tadala hug.

After withdrawing from the hug, he kept hold of Lanisa’s hand and pulled her along into a slow walk. They had been standing there for long enough, and it was only a matter of time until a teacher was going to walk along that corridor and caught the two of them standing there… He’d missed this, when it was just Lanisa and himself. Blake hadn’t really been spending enough time with her lately. Though, it wasn’t just her. His time seemed to be split between one of two things – Either homework, or his girlfriend. “Well, you know as well as I do he needs the least amount of stress that he can get right now… I mean seriously, first there was that whole thing with the Death Eaters, and he’s head boy and we’ve got exams coming up too… He seriously doesn’t need the worries of vampires as well, you’re right Chick…” A slight pause. “But he seriously doesn’t think that this place would’ve done up the security since the Death Eaters?” Yeah, well neither did Blake really. He was paranoid of Death Eaters coming back, so he didn’t blame Tad for being paranoid about the vampires either. Anything could happen at this school, and that had been proved how easily Blake had been snatched out of school at the beginning of the school year.