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Jan. 28th, 2009

Log Title: Holding Pieces of Dieing Ember
Location: Corridors
Characters Involved: Blake Parker (youllbeokay) and anyone else who wants to join.
Summary of Log: Blake can't sleep... again.
Rating: PG

A bunch of things were all adding up together to make Blake Parker frustrated. He was in a phase where school work seemed unimportant. He had no idea where that attitude had come from though. This was his last year in Hogwarts, this was the year that mattered, and yet he couldn't force himself to concentrate on his homework (or any other thing to do with school) for more than half an hour at a time. It was annoying to say the least, especially when he didn't even have a decent enough reason for being so distracted. Or any reason in the first place. He almost wanted to start skipping classes again. He had done a couple of times already, though it wasn't exactly the same as before - This time he was getting told off for it. By either Tad or some teacher. More so Tad. Tad wasn't happy with the spontaneous class skippings at all.

He was moody for no reason. Blake kept snapping at people, be it a teacher, some randomer, or even one of his best friends. Most recently Jack. He had blamed Jack because he had got drunk a couple of nights before. Yeah, blaming Jack was the best idea... Far from it actually. Blake still had no idea why he'd been so stupid to say that. It wasn't exactly Jack's fault that Blake couldn't resist guzzling down alcohol. He didn't half do some idiotic things, sometimes.

And he was craving attention. Not in the cuddles sort of way, he wanted so much more. Half a year and counting. Half a year without sex. Nearly a year since meaningful sex. The more that Blake thought about it, the more he craved it. He couldn't bring it up with Mags though. Definitely not now. It was possible that they could have already passed that stage, had she not been pregnant. It was driving him insane. Every 'what if' scenario was taunting him. If Jack hadn't stepped in, if the Death Eaters hadn't kidnapped him... He wanted to go so much further with Mags, yet it was almost as if he wasn't allowed to. Even a joke about it would upset Mags or anger her...

He always seemed to think up these what if situations whenever he was trying to sleep. And the answers always plagued him, and kept him awake. It was no different tonight. Blake Parker just could not sleep, so he had just been wandering corridors for a while, all well knowing the risk that he'd get a detention for being out after hours. But he didn't care. Someone to talk to at least would have been nice, however it was questionable whether anybody was actually going to be awake or not. Most people tended to be in bed by now.

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jubliantrise
Feb. 2nd, 2009 05:24 pm (UTC)
Lanisa paused for a moment as she listened to her friend speak. “Well Mags Rowley has always been a… vibrant girl,” she commented, speaking from an observation point of view. “Well at least she could get pretty rough during games, seriously I think some of the boys were even afraid of her! Except Jack though – Jack was never afraid… have you watched a match between Ravenclaw and Gryffindor this year at all? Seriously, you could cut the tension in the stadium with a knife… it was quite entertaining to say the least – especially when the losing captain of the two would take a fit.”

She hesitated before addressing the next point Blake had brought up. “Haven’t you and Mags been dating only for a couple of months though?” she asked him. “Maybe she’s not ready to commit herself in that way just yet… choosing to be with someone like that requires a sense of understanding on so many different levels. Tad and I have been dating for over a year now, but we’ve only just decided to take things to the next step because we’re close to one another and we love each other and there was nothing wrong with holding out… at the end of the day, it’s not a race you know?”

She shifted the weight of her book bag over to her other shoulder. “Well maybe if we all try reassuring him then he can perhaps starting believing that Professor Dumbledore won’t let anything else happen to his students,” she said. “He’s got to have faith in something… Blake, it’s not normal for him to be terrified all the time. To be honest, it worries me.”